It's late.
And I should probably be in bed. But I felt the need to come and post something good.
So yeah. That is why I'm here.

Today was quite an eventful day. My mom did my hair and took me to the studio to get my pictures taken for Senior portraits! It was fun. Yesterday, they took my drape shots, and today they took my casuals. I felt like a real MODEL. ;]

Other than that, I've just been trying to keep myself together. I keep feeling sick, but then at other times, I feel fine. Like now. I'm starting to believe it's just anxiety. But when my head gets dizzy, my arms go numb, my chest starts hurting, and my breathing becomes labored, I start to think otherwise. =/

Idk.
I will have a doctor's appointment soon, so maybe things will be straightened out. :]
Hmm... I hope so.

P.S. I wish nothing but the best for the families of Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Yesterday was truely a tragedy. Both on the same day... they will be missed.


G'night.

Alrighty. So I have decided that I would LOVE to improve my portfolio reguarding my makeup/photography skills. I have been searching around for some ideas of make up I could possibly do. =]

I am considering starting my first shoot with some friends. I'm gonna try to get some people together. It should be fun.

I really need to practice my makeup art. =]

Anywho.
I need to get ready. My dad is going to be taking me to see TRANSFORMERS. That movie is going to be SO GOOD! Wow. I can remember when the first one came out. I was a bit skeptical of it at first. You know... it being Transformers and all. The cartoon always seemed so childish to me at times. But when I saw it, I was just like... WOAH. 0_o

So yeah. Can't wait to see it. =]
I'll post about how it went soon. X]

TRANSFORMERS.
More than meets the eye. ;D

Whenever I can, I like to sit down and just take it all in.
I thank God everyday for the wonderful blessings He's given to me. Life is good.

It's weird.

At times, I hate where I am. I hate the situations I am faced with. But, there are also times when I just have to stop, and realize that I'm here for a purpose, and I can't keep moping around everywhere. I have to make the best of what I'm given.

So yeah.
I received a call this morning. It was from the portrait studio about my Senior pictures. I called them back and rescheduled. My hair's wet, I'm sitting in blue jeans, and I just really don't feel like going out to take pictures.

I guess that's a little bit that's been going on in my morning.
I'm a bit bored at the moment.

I'm thinking about painting or something like that.
I don't know.

I may go get something to eat.

ADIOS.

For the past week or so, I have been constantly worrying about my health.
I've felt dizzy and lightheaded and week. Just yesterday evening I thought something was happening to me after I ate a whole plate of sweets (aka a chocolate chip cookie, double chocolate chip brownie, and a piece of pumpkin bread).

It was delicious.

But I noticed about 5 minutes after eating it, I felt really weird. I started freaking out because I thought I was going into shock or something. But I think what really happened was I was starting to get a SUPER HIGH sugar rush. >.<

And it freaked me out a bit.
Yeah.

So I'm fine.
I took my blood sugar this morning, and my dad told me that it was normal.
So I hope everything goes well this week.

I'll be on the road soon.
My family is going back to Florida to pick my little brother up from camp. =]
It should be fun. We go to the little dinner they provide there every year.

Anywho, I think I need to stop typing so much.
My arms have been going numb, and they are starting to hurt right now.

I need to keep them CARPEL TUNNEL FREE in order to succeed at Color Guard this year.
;D


I'm out.

P.S. I posted a new layout. =D

I think it appropriate to say that the previous week for me was absolutely life changing. This was the week of my fourth time at church camp.

Going this year was amazing. I learned alot not only about God, but also about myself. The main topic of the week was serving others. At first, it was quite disappointing. For the whole week, all we did was go around in the hot sun and do work around the camp. It was quite a different camp experience compared to the years before.

Definately life changing.

There was one small detail that began to bother me that week. A guy.
... Ok. I lied. One HUGE detail. Yep. A guy. The first day I met him, he was actually pretty cool. We started talking and all that, and I kind of started to like him. Long story short, he ended up flirting with all the other girls in camp as well. So I'm not really too disappointed. I don't think that she even be going on at church camp anyways. 0_o

But moving on.
From the whole experience I did manage to get loads of helpful stuff.

I gained a new perspective on life, and the world, and most definately God.
I learned that nothing is too big for God. I learned that there are people around the world that are starving. I've learned that because the problem is so big, we often tend to ignore it because we don't think we could make a difference. Oh! And I also received a free NIV bible. That made me SUPER HAPPY. =D

Well, I guess that's it for now.
There's lots more I have to say, I just don't feel like it at the moment.

:]

So, it is the 4th day of June.
The weather has been pretty nice lately. I'm currently sitting here with my doggie and listening to my new TWILIGHT CD! =D

I was so happy when it came in yesterday! I ordered two. I ordered the original soundtrack, and the other one by Carter Burwell. They both are absolutely amazing. I love them.

Yesterday evening, I spent a good amount of time packing for the trip tomorrow. I'm not quite sure what time we will be leaving. I need to talk to my dad about that. Earlier this morning, I was worrying about whether I would be able to go to camp. I have this really bad rash on my leg, and it hurts. And then later this morning, I noticed a swollen lump around my upper thigh area. I think it's a swollen gland. I hope it goes away soon. It doesn't hurt that much. Only when I press on it. I just hope everything clears up in time for camp.

Agh! Camp is only 3 days away now. X]
I can't wait. Although, a few of my friends already say they don't want me to go. =[
I told them I would call before I left for camp. They BOTH still didn't like that I was going, but they had to accept something. >.<

So anyways, I have been thinking of what I'm gonna do for my youtube show thing. I'm still pretty excited about it. I hope everything works out with that. I can already picture what I want my characters to be like. X]

But yeah.
I'm gonna go now. I might play my Sims2. YEAH. That's right. I said Sims2.
NOT SIMS3. >.<

Anyways, Ta-Ta-For-Now.
xoxox

Hey.
I'm caught in quite a pickle right now.

It all started yesterday.

I was on the phone with one of my friends. You know, it was going well. I'd missed him. We hadn't talked in almost a month or so. Maybe longer. I told him about summer and all the activities I've done, and he told me about his job.

Then out of no where, he pops the question.
"Ok, I'm really sorry and don't take this personally. But I still can't believe you are 16 and are still a virgin."

0_o


Did this REALLY just happen? GAH.
It kind of took me by surprise. I told him I didn't want to, and that I was too young to even be doing that stuff. He just insisted that NO, I was too young to get pregnant, I WASN'T too young to have sex.


Because of this one conversation, I have been up just about all night. It's on my conscience, and I DON'T like it ONE BIT. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. It causes me pain. When he said these things, it made me think. And it broke my heart.
Why are these things so hard. Why is the world so messed up? I don't understand why so many concepts have been twisted and turned into something different for this generation. All my life, I have been raised to believe that sex was made and meant for a MARRIED couple. So many teens these days don't believe or understand this. It makes it so hard for me. I just wish that things were different.

Why can't they see?
I just... agh. I need someone who understands me. I feel alone in this.

Am I?