I'm sick and tired of being so tired.
I feel like my carelessness and selfishness have brought me so far away from the things that I truely love. When you look at me, you may think I'm something different than I really am. I've even managed to fool myself.

Selflessness is much deeper than the actions. It's barried in the deep dark crevices of the heart, and if it doesn't start there, then selfishness is bound to creep in and grow so deep, that it becomes uncontrollable, and the person doesn't even know that it even exists. They fool themselves into believing the lies they tell themselves each day.

I'm tired of lying.
I feel like a hypocrite. I want to care again.
Selfishness isn't and wasn't meant for me.
I want to care.

I've talked to God, and I think I need to do so again. Ask Him to change my heart.
Change my mind. I need to be changed from the inside out, and only He can do it.

Moving on, I managed to make Color Guard on Monday!
Our first practice was Tuesday, and it was intense.
We were supposed to have another practice today, but 2 cases of swine flu were found at a nearby elementary school. So school where I am has been closed for the rest of the week. YES!

You do not know how happy I was last night.
My sister and I were dancing when we heard the news.

I'm sure she was extra happy not to go because today is in fact her birthday.
I plan on going out later with my mom to get her a gift. I'm sure she will enjoy it.
I just asked her what she wanted and she said she'd like clothes. So that's perfect.
I planned on getting her something like that anyways. lol.

But I'm going to go take a shower now.
I'll let you know how everything goes.

P R A Y F O R M E.

I don't think I have been so exhausted in so long.
Spanish Convention... oh... Spanish Convention.

The morning started out lovely!
I woke up at 5:40 to take a shower and get dressed.
I had to be at the bus by 6:45.
L O V E L Y. -_-

Everything went well. I had to sit on a bus full of loud obnoxious teens for a straight 3 hours going to Tuscaloosa. It was rather loud, and... uncomfortable. Too many people. The actually competition was located at the Alambama at Tuscaloosa campus. Now I'm not a huge BAMA fan, but the campus was absolutely AMAZING. I never expected to be so awesome. The food court was ABSOLUTELY mind-blowing. They had BK, Chick-Fil-A, this sushi place, BBQ, soul food (and yes, I DID say soul food ;D ), this pizza and pasta place, this Mexican food place, and TONS of candy and drinks! It was awesome.

And the best thing is, I won 3rd place in my category.

Finally, the day ended with a LONG ride back with loud teens, flashing cameras, and "bus party" in the back. It was a rather eventful time.

And now, I am exhausted. Exhausted to the point of having to get an extra 3 hour nap in along with a splitting headache. Don't worry. I took some meds not to long ago though.

Now I am listening to music, and am about to go practice for Color Guard try-outs on Monday. I'll let you know what happens. =D

ADIOS, M I A M I G O. ♥

It's amazing.
I never usually have such busy weeks as this one. Because of this, I have just been extremely exhausted by the end of the day. Anyhow, I have been going to Color Guard practice after school. It has been really fun!

Yesterday I was faced with a dilemna. Color Guard try-outs and the Spanish convention field trip are both on the same day. But I talked to the color guard instructor, and she said that I could try-out on Monday if I'd like, so that's what I'm going to do.

I'm so excited!
I really think that I am going to make it. I'm learning all of the routines extremely fast. It's awesome!

So I am really looking forward to that. I also have to finish reading their Eyes Were Watching God. There's supposed to be a test over that on Friday, but I won't be there for it. >.<

Anyways, it's 9:00, and I decided to go to bed early.
My head has been killing me. I think I'm coming down with something... =[
*sniffle sniffle*

I shall post when I can.

L O V E, D.

Today I suffered the consequences of staying up too late. Before I continue, one may ask "What is late in my opinion?" Well, in my opinion, late is around 10 o'clock PM.

I went to bed at 12.

The cause of this was mainly because I was uploading a video I made with my sister that afternoon. It was pretty fun. On that note, I would have to say that staying up editing, and uploading that video may have been alot better for my health if I would have waited for today to finish. It was because of this particular video that I suffereed an intense migraine today. It was horrible. You know? The kind you get when it feels like you can barely function because every bright light, every loud sound, and every sudden movement just makes you cringe and want to curl up into a ball.

Yeah. It sucked.
But not to worry. When my mom picked me up, I consumed a large Sonic Lime-aide, went to the library to pick up a few books, then took some pain killers as soon as I got home. Problem solved. *thumbs up*

Now, I sit hear and continue to write about my day, I am waiting for 9 o' clock to roll around so I can watch my favorite show. TAKING THE STAGE. It's a new show on Mtv all about these few high school students that attend the School for Creative and Performing Arts in Cincinnati. So far, my favorite character is none other than Mia Curruthers. She is an amazing singer/song writer and has one of the most beautiful voices I've ever heard. If anything, I watch that show because of her. Her and Aaron that is. He's cute too. X]

Well, my show is coming on in about 6 minutes! =D
Here's a counter, although it will be over soon. Hehe.

Check ya later dudes! =D

Taking the Stage

Yeah.
So here's the thing. I was totally planning on actually posting an Easter blog on EASTER! Yeah! I even opened the blog window about 2 times... and both of those times I decided that I was too lazy to write anything at the time. SO of course, I said "Oh... I'll just write it later tonight." And OF COURSE, I forgot.

So that is why I'm writing it now. Right now. Yes. Now.

Oh! And in the meantime, here's a cute little Easter egg picture for you to stare at before you continue.
Stare... NOW.




My Easter was wonderful. Amazing even.

At the end of the day, I couldn't help but feel loved and refreshed. It's amazing how God does that to people, and not only on Easter. The day started off with an illustrated sermon at church. It was pretty cool. I think I have a new role model. He's this guy named Brian Welch. He is now an ex-member of Korn. That's a super popular rock band for those of you that didn't know already. ;]

His testimony was probably the greatest. On the video, he told of how he was addicted to drugs, and the "rocker" life style, and how God changed his life around completely.

I find that so inspiring!
*sigh* Yep. He's awesome.

Um... well the rest of the day didn't consist of much, other than lounging around in my room, eating tons of food, getting fat, and using the computer. YAY!

Well, I'm off to check my email. My teacher is supposed to be sending an article to read for homework...
BLAH.

Less than three! =D
AKA <3

Well, it feels better to know that the day is closing just a tad better than the way it started. Although I haven't completed any school work, I did get to do some laundry, and that means that there's not a huge mound of clothes sitting on the living room couch anymore. I also got to draw some more art. Although the drawing was fun and all that, the best part of my day was talking to... hm... we'll call them LEWIS, as in C.S. Lewis. I got to talk to Lewis. =]

It made me happy.
Although he probably thinks I'm weird or something, calling his house every 5 minutes. lol. >.<
Well, not really. I only called like 3 times today. Gah... I've got to stop doing that and give the guy some space. Everyone needs there space. It may seem hard to believe, but even I need my space.

... Yes. I know. "Shocker"!
But anyways, that last statement is what probably made my day.
I might be able to see Lewis tomorrow for Easter Sunday.

When and if I do, I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm actually about to go to bed. I'm pretty satisfied with the way today had turned out.

But it's now time to close.
Time for bed.

G'night.

Hello there!

I just wanted to introduce to you a friend of mine.
Her name is Minnie, and she will be stopping by from time to time.

Just wanted to let you know that you'll be seeing her around. ;]

Saturdays often require a good deal of relaxation in order to fully enjoy them. Good thing for me, relax is exactly what I tend to do.

This whole week has been hectic. Trying to get my assignments for school done has really drained me of my energy. I NEED this time to relax. When I'm not being drowned in school work, burning my eyes out on the computer, trying to finish an assignment, I have found the time to create a new character for my drawings.

She's cute, I guess. I love her hair. Haha. It was just yesterday that I finally gave her a name. Yesterday, the tornadoe sirens went off, so everybody in school had to go into the hallways. One of my friends who is deathly afraid of storms was about to have a panic attack. So you know... I started drawing for her, and I guess it helped a little bit. Well, I had to think of a name. So I decided to name her Minnie. Not Minnie after MINNIE MOUSE, Minnie after one of my friends dogs. lol.

She is a cute dog, so I decided to use that name. :]

Idk. I may start some little comics once I use my tablet again. It would be cool.
Hopefully everything works out.

Well, I still have some laundry doing, bed making, kitchen cleaning, trash taking to do before I can start to "relax". *sigh*

I'll be sure to let you know how THAT goes. =/

PEACE&RELAXING.

I thought I'd open with this lovely picture of a tree.

Why? Well... I don't know. I just thouht it looked pretty. And I also thought it fitting, since you know, its Spring and all. >.<



Today was a rather accomplishing day. The most recent project in Broadcasting class that I've had involves making our own commercial spoof. Mine came out exceptionally good. Everyone thought it was funny, so it definately fullfilled it's purpose. It was basically a spoof of the Geico commercial, except we had a little rock with eyes, and we were advertising the rock. It was... interesting. lol.

During math class, I was thinking about a friend and how we could totally become a band and travel around the country together. I could sing and he could rap. Idk. It seemed awesome at the time.

But yeah.
OH! Today one of my teacher friends brought in 4 two week old baby bunnies! They were ADORABLE! There eyes were still shut, and he had to feed them though an dropper. They were so adorable! I went to go look at them again after school, only to find that they were all gone. =/

It sucked.

Anyways, I just finished my grilled cheese sandwich, and now I am about to complete my math homework so I can go to bed early.

Hehe.
I may come back to write more later. ;]

It hurts me.

To know there is something that I want SO BADLY, but to be so unsure of what will really happen. I wonder if things will all work out, but I know I could never let go. Or at least... that's how it feels. Its been this way for some time now.

I just wish I could be sure.
To know that something so sweet will always be there.

But something tells me that it won't, and I can't.
But I still can dream that it will.

♥

i'll stay up til twilight to see the new moon. if i'm lucky, i'll see the eclipse at breaking dawn, and the whole time i'll be sitting here with you, under the midnight sun


How amazing is that?
♥

Today is Sunday. The beginning of a new week. The word "new" always seems to make me feel happy. A new start, something fresh, oh! It also reminds me of Spring time. Isn't that when all the NEW flowers start to bloom? Lovely.

Well today is going well so far. The only struggle I've really had is trying to choose a new blog layout, and wanting to talk to someone but not being sure if I should. It's complicated. (not really... I just enjoy saying that.)

But anyways, church was pretty good today. Although, at the end my stomach started getting to me. Don't you hate it when you're in the middle of church and your stomach just start to ACHE?!?! Well... yeah. As a result, I am now sitting her eating last nights left-overs. YUM. *thumbs up*

Well, I can think of nothing more.
I am off to either take a nap, or search for a new layout.

Peace out, HOMESKILLET BUISCUTS.
...(word.)

Yes! It is finally Friday!
My April Fool's Wednesday night was ok. Gaia had a lame April Fool'd joke, but w/e. lol.

I was SUPER TIRED today. I'm never usually this tired at all. I felt so tired that I didn't feel like I could get through some of my classes. It was horrible. I did a search on sleeping and your health, and research states that a lack of sleep triggers stress hormones. That may be the reason for my past chest pain and anxiety attacks. I've decided that I need to get more rest. Like Pronto.

I'm going to bed early tonight, and hopefully that will help.

Anyways, about the guy thing. If a guy asks you if you have a BF, and you ask them back, but they ignore your question and say something else, is this a bad thing? 0_o

Hmph. I don't think I need help to figure that one out.
Anyways, I'm gonna go for a bit and try to do some stuff before I get my rest.

Peace out home skillet.

And HAPPY APRIL FOOL's... or whatever you call it. lol XD

My week has been absolutely phenominal so far! It's awesome. lol.

On Monday, and I had a fabulous day. I don't know why. I was so tired in the morning, but by the end of the day, it just turned around. It was a time when my mind was clear, and that's the time when I can function the best. lol I answered lots of questions in English, so that made me feel SUPER ACCOMPLISHED! Hehe.

And yesterday was pretty awesome too! =D
I brought my Twilight bag to schooL! So that made me happy. I also brought my sketch pad as well. But the overall best part of my day, was getting to see one of my best friends at the mall. His name is Charles, and I hadn't seen him since Freshman year. He's one of the most amazing people I've ever known and I L O V E him.

That moment made my day. ♥

This morning when I was thinking about my character that I'm going to draw, I was thinking about making one that looked like him, and naming him Charles. Hehe. It's genius. I know, I know! I think I'm going to do that. ;D

I will let you know how today goes.
Peace, Love, and HAPPINESS!

xoxo♥