I'm sick and tired of being so tired.
I feel like my carelessness and selfishness have brought me so far away from the things that I truely love. When you look at me, you may think I'm something different than I really am. I've even managed to fool myself.

Selflessness is much deeper than the actions. It's barried in the deep dark crevices of the heart, and if it doesn't start there, then selfishness is bound to creep in and grow so deep, that it becomes uncontrollable, and the person doesn't even know that it even exists. They fool themselves into believing the lies they tell themselves each day.

I'm tired of lying.
I feel like a hypocrite. I want to care again.
Selfishness isn't and wasn't meant for me.
I want to care.

I've talked to God, and I think I need to do so again. Ask Him to change my heart.
Change my mind. I need to be changed from the inside out, and only He can do it.

Moving on, I managed to make Color Guard on Monday!
Our first practice was Tuesday, and it was intense.
We were supposed to have another practice today, but 2 cases of swine flu were found at a nearby elementary school. So school where I am has been closed for the rest of the week. YES!

You do not know how happy I was last night.
My sister and I were dancing when we heard the news.

I'm sure she was extra happy not to go because today is in fact her birthday.
I plan on going out later with my mom to get her a gift. I'm sure she will enjoy it.
I just asked her what she wanted and she said she'd like clothes. So that's perfect.
I planned on getting her something like that anyways. lol.

But I'm going to go take a shower now.
I'll let you know how everything goes.

P R A Y F O R M E.