Hey.
I'm caught in quite a pickle right now.

It all started yesterday.

I was on the phone with one of my friends. You know, it was going well. I'd missed him. We hadn't talked in almost a month or so. Maybe longer. I told him about summer and all the activities I've done, and he told me about his job.

Then out of no where, he pops the question.
"Ok, I'm really sorry and don't take this personally. But I still can't believe you are 16 and are still a virgin."

0_o


Did this REALLY just happen? GAH.
It kind of took me by surprise. I told him I didn't want to, and that I was too young to even be doing that stuff. He just insisted that NO, I was too young to get pregnant, I WASN'T too young to have sex.


Because of this one conversation, I have been up just about all night. It's on my conscience, and I DON'T like it ONE BIT. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. It causes me pain. When he said these things, it made me think. And it broke my heart.
Why are these things so hard. Why is the world so messed up? I don't understand why so many concepts have been twisted and turned into something different for this generation. All my life, I have been raised to believe that sex was made and meant for a MARRIED couple. So many teens these days don't believe or understand this. It makes it so hard for me. I just wish that things were different.

Why can't they see?
I just... agh. I need someone who understands me. I feel alone in this.

Am I?