Yep.

It's May.
As of lately, my life hasn't been that eventful. I've just been tired exhausted, busy, and really tired of all the stress that just kind of FLOWED into my life.

And feeling unnecessarily unhappy doesn't help much as well.
I don't know why, but I'm just not happy where I am. There doesn't seem like there's any meaning to anything. I've been reading "The Purpose Driven Live" by Dr. Rick Warren. In the book, there is a chapter about caring less about earthly possessions and more of your Heavenly home.

He also talks about how we're never really happy on Earth because, we weren't meant for earth in the first place. We were meant for Heaven. I just started thinking. It makes me sad to think about it. I feel like whenever I try to focus on something, I lose track of God. And when I try to place my focus back on God, I start to suck at everything else.

Drawing, my goals. Everything just seems to go down hill.
I just can't possibly understand what I'm doing wrong...
It's quite depressing at times.

If this is what happens, what do I have to look forward to in life.
My goals are all a waste. I want to make a living. I don't want to struggle.

*sigh*...
Maybe it's just a balancing issue.

I need to find myself.