Ok. So, the REAL final day of school was today.
I'm so happy. :]

I'm currently on the office computer. It's pretty nice. I just realized that the internet is finally fixed on here, so AIM is working and that annoying pop-up alert saying "Your freakin' internet isn't working" isn't popping up! =D

That makes me super happy. ^^

But yeah, so I'm installing the Sims2 Pets expansion pack right now.
I'll probably be playing that for a few hours. It's funny how playing that game takes forever. =/ I decided to play it mostly because I was having a really crappy afternoon before this. Mostly by throwing a pitty party... so you shouldn't be too worried. I hate it when I do that.

Agh... it's just... I often wonder if I'll die alone of something. Idk. It never really gets to me (except for this afternoon of course >.>) But... Idk.All the guys I talk to, just seem to see me as a friend I guess. And there are never any new guys to talk to, so it gets kind of depressing. Hearing and seeing success stories EVERYWHERE just gets under my skin too. Girls getting crushes right after their break up two weeks ago. (They've got a guy just like THAT. *snaps for emphasis on "THAT"*) It just gets discouraging. Like... I want a guy that will be my best friend and also love me for me in more of just a best friend way. Is that TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!?!?!

Agh... I always thought the best way to go about it is to become friends first. And then I started to thinking well maybe if you do that, then they'll think you are better just as a friend. But THEN, if you go around dressing all slinky and batting your eyes at a guy, they won't take you seriously. They'll only think it's a one time thing... like you're a booty call or something. I'm just confused right now, and quite convinced that Mr. Right does not exist.

And for the moment, I'm totally fine with that. I often wonder if it would be better for ME to be alone. That way I wouldn't have to worry about all the stupid details.

Just saying.
I want something amazing to happen, where I don't have to be jealous and depressed over such a stupid issue. I'm just tired of being considered "The Good Friend". I want to have someone too.

*sigh*
From what I hear, I'm not the only one.
So I guess others can relate.

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