Hey guys!

Gah. Today was so... BLAH.

I have just found so many problems and things that I have to worry about in my life.
It sucks.

1. I don't feel like my SpiritMan is as close to God as it used to be.
--- I'm constantly finding myself doing things, and NOT caring like I used to. Idk what it is... I have also noticed that when I was closer to God, I was more organized. More neat. I cared more. Idk. It may seem absurd, but it's not. I have truely noticed a change in my behavior. And I hate it. I'm still nice and all, but... I feel like a hypocrit. I pray and all, but my relationship with God feels so weak right now. Like, I would think about God, and just not care. I used to think and talk to/about Him all the time. I hate what I've become. As RELIENT K once said,"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been". I'm putting my foot down. "It's time for healing, time to move on. It's time to fix what's been broken too long. Time to make right, what has been wrong. It's time to find my way to where I belong." (That was SANCTUS REAL by the way.)

2. I need to stop procrastinating.
--- I have an AP English 11, eight page research paper rough draft due next week, on the 26th I believe. I barely even knew what I was going to write it about. It's really frustrating. My sources are due tomorrow, and I still haven't searched those up. So yeah... I'm behind.

3. I have to many idols in my life.
--- Computer. Acting. Music. Friends. I just feel like I need to get away from it all. I sit and wonder if maybe it is all of these things that are effecting my relationship with God.

4. I'm always feeling like I'm constantly sick.
--- Which probably means I'm out of shape and need to excercise. This would probably include using less computer and reading less books. I put too much of a strain on my eyes.

So yeah. There's lots more. I'm sure. These are just the few that I care to think about at the moment.

I guess I'm doing fine right now, apart from my chest hurting. This frightens me at times. But it's probably just stress and anxiety, and a lack of excercising. GR.

Why does excercising have to have such a big effect on life? WHY?!?! D=

I hope it all goes well.